Tuesday, January 21, 2020

Panic Attacks and College

I have panic attacks. Sometimes they happen when I'm doing the most mundane thing. For example: I can be doing homework and suddenly it will hit. I will worry about everyone I know, all the homework due, my Capstone project, and everything else I need to do this semester.

It is not a conscious choice. I usually breath heavily, my heart flutters like it wants to stop beating, my vision tunnels, and I need to sit very still. Sometimes I need to lay down, sometimes I need to knit, sometimes I need to sleep. At night, I usually pray as hard as I can until it's gone. That is generally the principle during the day as well.

How do I manage this in class? I start to doodle usually, or I focus on something else. Sometimes it is someone else's conversation, praying for someone elses problems, texting someone if it's before class or after class, or using other distraction techniques. Sometimes I also sit in the bathroom doing deep breathing exercises until it passes.

This semester I've already had 4 panic attacks. I could use prayers and if anyone has any techniques, I would be glad to hear them. 

Monday, January 13, 2020

The Start of New Classes

This week I started my new classes. I have several classes, I am dropping my minor by Wednesday, and I should be graduated by May. I am submitting my graduation application after I've dropped my minor.

I am excited by my new classes and teachers. I feel like this semester will be good, I just need to make sure to stay on top of everything. With that in mind, I would like everyone to keep me in prayer.