What I didn't know about Adulting

I knew adulting was hard. I was in college for 5 years, so I kinda knew what it was like. I was not expecting how different adulting would be once you were married. I am now responsible for another person. He knows how to feed himself and he does, he knows how to clean and he does, but I still want to take care of him. I enjoy cooking for him and trying to make him feel happy. 

But I wasn't expecting how much we would support each other. He is always trying to make sure I'm happy and I'm always trying to make sure he is happy. Or if not happy, satisfied. And he does the same for me. 

I wasn't prepared for how much I would need him. I was taught to try and be independent, mostly because life is uncertain. You never know if you will get married. I did and now I am surprised by how much I need him, how much I depend on him. I loved hugs, but being held was sometimes too much. Now all I want is to be held by him. Sometimes while he is at work is when I miss him the most, it makes me want to be held even more.

Marriage is a gift from God and it is certainly the best gift He has given me thus far. This man that he gave me is better than what I was wanting or expecting.